Yesterday was the fifth anniversary of losing my Lola, the shitzu who was my heart dog, my one and only sweet girl, the dog who carried me through some of the most difficult years of my life. I had to get out of bed because she (and my second shitzu, Boq) needed to go out. They needed me to get them groomed, fed, walked … and when all else felt like it was falling apart, they kept me going. One day at a time. Until life felt good again. The reminder that it’s been five years knocked me off my feet yesterday and I miss them both just as much today as I did after they died. They were the best little dogs ever and I am so grateful to them for helping me through.

And then we lost the BBD a couple of weeks ago. He was my hubby’s boy although he always came running to me when he was afraid of the thunder. LOL And now we are thinking about how to store the dog beds that have been on every floor of our house forever. I’m ready to wash and store the one in my atelier because I need the space. Hubby’s not ready to store the one in his man cave, it’s still too fresh. It doesn’t feel right. We’re figuring it out but, gee, it sure feels bizarre to come home to an empty house and to not have to rush home to let a dog out or to think about hubby traveling next month and I’ll be here absolutely alone for the first time since we built the house.

Dogs become part of the family and in so doing become a part of your heart. We’ve been lucky to have a few great dogs and a few great grand-dogs, too. And when they leave … it’s crushing. So, we choose to honor them by living on. I don’t think we’ll have another dog for a bit. I might be able to live dog-free forever but I have a feeling there’s another dog in our future. In the meantime, we’re getting up in the morning and choosing to fill up our days with joy, love, service and gratitude (and cry when we are feeling sad.) It’s all a part of the “cost” of loving a dog.

I’m continuing to get healthier and stronger and add a bit more “stuff” to my day. I’m knitting again, too. Yesterday I cast on with the Wooly Thistle in their 2026 Sock Sprint. I am knitting the Lochside Socks in John Arbon Textiles Exmoor Sock in a really lovely shade of green. The sock pattern is simple enough, a 2×2 rib and then a broken rib to the heel flap. I’ve got a bit to go before I get there but it feels good.

I’m knitting with my Signature DPNs that I collected a set of ages ago. I have to be very careful with these needles because they’re needle sharp. Truly. (Ask me how I know!) Anyway, they’re coming along nicely and will be good to work on when I don’t want to think too hard. I am going to be pulling out my Broadgate Tabard again, too. I’ve got the back finished and am working on the front and it’s time to get this project finished up. I don’t have too much more knitting to do on the front and I am eager to wear it! I still love the green linen and I think it’ll be a wonderful garment. My brainless knitting is the Easy Folded Poncho and when I don’t have the bandwidth to count stitches, I grab this. It’s just a simple stockinette rectangle and I’ve got about another twenty inches or so to knit before I can block it and sew up the seam.

Some of my leftovers went home with my daughter to NYC for a crochet project and that has inspired me to look at my stash and to purge some yarns that I don’t really want to work with. I’ll be taking one bag of yarns to the store on Thursday for the give-away pile. We have a lot of yarn in the office that needs to find a new home and maybe when the boss is away we can find a suitable person to take (at least) some of it! I also have to look through the bins and baskets in my studio because I know I have several “sweaters’ worth” that I don’t even count as part of my stash. I even have a few hanks that I can return since I’ve finished projects and don’t need the extra hank or two. Yay, me!

The good news is that if I’m cleaning up and cleaning out, I must be feeling better!

Gone knitting.